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Note the pattern and do it yourself. [Aug. 26th, 2009|03:35 am]
Elliott Avenue
I love Selena Sunday.
I like blueberry pancakes.
I'm indifferent about celebrity gossip.
I dislike wasps and hornets.
I hate being broke.

Okay, now it's your turn.
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(no subject) [Aug. 24th, 2009|09:29 pm]
Elliott Avenue
I am in a crisis.

I swear, life could not be any more difficult for me than it is right now. I'm not going to go into all the crummy little details, but more or less, my extreme lack of financial comfort has led me down a path of awful circumstances. What's even worse is that Selena, also known as the love of my life, is in the same conundrum, except she has to live by herself in a place the size of a closet that's miles and miles away from any friends or family. And she doesn't have a car. This isolation is sucking the life out of her, and because I lack the money and magic to rescue her, the most I can do is accompany her. All of this is very painful for her and I.

While others spend this summer going to bars and clubs, camping, having parties, going to the movies, hanging out at the beach and stuff like that, Selena and I have spent this summer watching television and suffering. We're stuck in an unbearable world, and there's nothing we can do to get out of it. Money is the only solution, which is why I hate money. It ruins lives. When is all of this going to end?

If you're reading this, you should feel grateful that you're not the one typing this. Be happy that you're not the one going through all of these horrible things.
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(no subject) [Aug. 12th, 2009|08:50 pm]
Elliott Avenue
I'm trying to make my way into acquiring jobs in the realm of photography, and it is SO DIFFICULT! So far, I've had a couple potential clients, but then they either bail on me or don't want to pay for my services. How the hell do people end up do weddings and photo shoots and stuff on an almost daily basis? I'm just trying to work it out so I can have one or two jobs lined up every weekend, and it is SUCH a struggle. Seeing that all I have is a portfolio of my own personal work which lacks photography from previous jobs (since technically I've never has MY OWN photo job before), it's an epic battle.

Seriously, if all I had was one or two shoots every weekend, I'd honestly be making over 20 times more money than I am right now with my stupid mall job. My car is jacked up, I'm up to my eyeballs in debt, I can't put gas in my car without Selena's help, bills bills bills, and it never ends. I just want to support myself through doing what I love. Apparently, it seems next to impossible in regards to making it happen.
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starts with "s", rhymes with "bummer". [Jul. 21st, 2009|01:59 am]
Elliott Avenue
i can't quite figure out the meaning behind this summer. i do know, though, that it feels a bit surreal, like it's not happening. it's in a league of its own, unlike any summer or season i've ever experienced. it seems that there are three themes swimming around my life during this unfortunately mild season: love, distance and the struggle to survive. i've never felt so old before.

there are no hang outs with the usual friends. the usual friends are far away, doing things not so usual. in the past, the most important component to every summer was spending almost every day with my closest friends and doing summer things. that's gone now, and oddly enough i'm okay with it, or at least i'm used to it at this point. i do miss hanging out in apartments, though.

if i didn't have selena in my life, i don't know where i'd be. probably somewhere not nearly as good.
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(no subject) [Jun. 14th, 2009|06:46 pm]
Elliott Avenue
i'm excited with this newfound arrangement, this plan to move north with my love. our place will be tiny, but our hearts will make it feel like home, a big home. ortonville, here we come. soon.

this is a revolution of the mind.
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(no subject) [May. 26th, 2009|06:12 pm]
Elliott Avenue
i'm back.
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(no subject) [Mar. 19th, 2009|01:48 am]
Elliott Avenue
Dear world,

You may or may not know this, but I make music. For reasons I cannot explain, I am much better off by myself than I am with others when it comes to writing and recording music. I guess you could say it is something that I consider very personal in my life. It's a release. It is a ship in my life that allows me to sail through hard oceans and stay above the water. All of this is why I released an entire full-length album (Basement/Apartment) last year and didn't care that only 15 people would listen to it despite the fact that the album was over two years in the making. I just didn't care, but it wasn't always that way for me.

I used to make music for people to listen to and like, which would make me feel better in return. Basically, music was a self-esteem builder. I only recorded songs and showed them to the world so they could tell me how great I was at it. I really, really, REALLY wanted people to see me as one of the best artists in the Detroit area. It would take a good long while to realize that I'm not a great musician, which is where I am right now. I had the music right, but the reason wrong.

Now, I don't care who listens. However, there are a small handful of individuals who truly enjoy my music and look forward to hearing my material. I am forever thankful for you all, and I'm hoping you know who you are. My next two projects are dedicated to you.

With all of that out of the way, I would like to announce my next two albums, which will be my last. For reasons I can't quite explain, these two albums will be the last pieces of music I ever record. There is a very slight and unlikely chance that this may not be true in the end, but after this, I don't see myself making music. I don't know. Anyway...

My full discography is listed below. Thank you.

-Album: Basement/Apartment
-Release: October 2008
-15 Songs

-Album: Hard Oceans EP
-Release: June 2009
-5 Songs

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-Album: TBA
-Release: Winter 2010
-13 Songs

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(no subject) [Feb. 24th, 2009|01:22 am]
Elliott Avenue
I've never been in a relationship more cruel and neglecting and inconsiderate than this one. I've never been with someone so unforgiving and self-seeking and vicious until I met her. I have never felt so small and insignificant and naked in my entire life. The last few weeks have been so scarring and painful on my heart, and all of this pain was caused from a girl who believes that we have no souls. As if we're merely physical. The walking dead.

I walk away from you now, trying to hold myself together, trying not to run, trying not to make myself seem terribly horrified on the outside, mutilated on the inside, with whatever shred of dignity I have left. I'm angry at myself for all the nights I laid in your bed, not realizing that it was a bear trap.

Now, it's time I go back to what I've always been so accustomed to, so used to, so comforted by. Walking next to no one. Hiding alone somewhere. I made it out alive. Now, I have to rebuild my strength.

I will never, ever know what it means to be loved. Oddly enough, I don't fucking care.
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(no subject) [Feb. 22nd, 2009|09:36 pm]
Elliott Avenue
I'm making my account "friends only". If you still care to read, let me know.
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(no subject) [Feb. 19th, 2009|11:28 pm]
Elliott Avenue
I don't like the way I feel right now.
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